• Low T therapy made me worse, alt safer methods?

I’ve had low testosterone since my early 20s. No exact explanation was given why. I did T therapy but had to stop because I lost my mind and got worse. I ensures without it the next 20 years but it got worse again I suspect after I got off an SSRI that destroyed my mind and body.

My doctor and I tried to fix the damage but it was too late for most of it. I went to my primary care doctor and he told me I gave lower testosterone than usual and I asked for a urologist as I was a disaster in many ways. If appears I have lower testosterone than even regular guys with low testosterone as I was but then was able to still function but couldn’t sleep as is the norm with me.

I tried the shots which again made me gain loads of weight and again psychotic, so naturally, we tried the gel. It did the same thing and worse things. Because of my severely low levels, what am I left with? Being any form of T therapy makes me worse mentally and physically when promised it would do the opposite.

I go through that garbage ever again, but have heard there are alternate safer methods. I am desperate and looking for doctors familiar with such problems as it seems very common that T therapy is problematic as I knew 20 years ago, but hoped things changed. Sadly it’s even worse than before in doing it. I eat healthy so that’s not it but I’m at a loss and losing it mentally.